No Tears - Selling One's Soul
Hi Bro. Ignatius,
Could the inability to cry during tragedies or sufferings of others (especially those we love dearly) be caused by giving up one's soul?
I don't think I've done that. I've been tempted to sell my soul for a few years, but I would always say no. Unfortunately, I would get so frustrated a few times and say just take it as if the devil was badgering me. I have to say that I suffered mental issues so that makes me doubt if I really did it because it was all in my mind.
Well, I had this dream where I was chasing after a black shadow years ago. It had something of mine and I was scared trying to get it back. When I woke up from my dream, I jerked up and felt something leave me.
The last time I cried for someone was during Septemper 11, 2001 for a relative. She is alive, but I thought she died when I saw the building crumble. A month before, August of 2001, I had a breakdown (personal reasons) and started seeing a doctor.
I always wondered why I am unable to cry for others whom I am closest with. I do cry though but for myself (self-pity). Not often though this year. I cried only once for myself this year (to my memory), because I was overwhelmed with my problems.
Because I lack tears and/or pain for others, it feels like I don't care. And I would say I don't care, because I don't feel anything.
Why? Lost my soul? Psychological reasons? Indifference? Maturity
I would love to hear your input on someone who would have thrown herself inside her relative coffin when she was a teenager
I do pray for others though.
God bless.
QUESTION from Bobbie on April 16, 2004
All of the above? Other?
(I'm in my 20's) to someone who feels absolutely nothing thus is indifferent and speaks with indifference within her own heart.
ANSWER by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM on April 24, 2004
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Dear Bobbie: In this day and age we live in a culture of "feelings". People respond in their own ways; we are not all alike. I, too, have been accused of having no emotions at times because I do not react in the way someone thinks I should. For example, when my firstborn daughter was born the nurses thought that I did not show much emotion. I did, in that I was smiling underneath the surgical mask, but apparently they expected my to flitter around the room doing in a furry of excitement. Well, that just isn't me. I do not express my emotions that way. From what you are saying, it sounds to me that you just express yourself in a quieter way. One does not have to express verbose emotions in order to care. If what I am saying doesn't apply in your case and you really feel no concern for others, then psychological treatment may help you. As for you offering your soul to the devil, do not do that even in jest. I would advise that you pray prayers of Renouncement of any 'giving' of your soul to the devil that you may have done, to be on the safe side. We will be praying for you.
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